Kladowo 19 March 1940          ב"ה 

 

My very beloved precious Feigale ת'!

I also sent you a card yesterday, but when I write I feel as though I am talking to you.   Today I received 2 pounds from Antwerp which Uncle Piniu נ"י had sent there for me. I was terribly annoyed about this because Mrs. Gottesmann wrote to me that her son intervened with Uncle on my behalf. What are people going to think of me? First of all I don’t need it here, and secondly I would not have needed an intermediary. These are so-called unasked for טובות , although they certainly meant it very well. It is a good thing that I received it in the original rather than in dinars. I believe it would be good when you have money to send it to Beile ת' so that I have it when I arrive there בעה"ש. Is that really ever going to be?  I often feel it is unbearable. Please my precious child, please write to me why Tuli is in this health resort. I think a great deal about whether he might ח"ו have been ill.  I am absolutely unable to be free of these thoughts. Please write me the truth about this. Why, in particular, is he there all alone?

I just received a card from Esterl ת', so cold and distant that my heart broke.

I kiss you and all the loved ones,

Your Mama.

Write to me about everybody

 

I greet all of you with much love,

Zwi

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        Tovos – favours

        Bella Rapaport, Chaye’s cousin in Tel Aviv.

        Esti recalls that, although the news was kept from her, she sensed that her father had passed away and did not know how to express her emotional turmoil.  It was only a year later or more, when in Letchworth staying with Guggy, that he Hebrew teacher Dr. Heineman was asked to tell her.  He said it very carefully looking at her and told her the Yahrzeit.  She made a mental note of the date and no emotional response.